Give me Novacaine

I fell like shit, once again... but isn't 'cause I'm just down, ... I guess it's cause I took too many pills today... I mean, I have to take half of the pill, but I just took Three or something, I can't remember, But I feel like shit, my ehad is gonna explode & I want to vomit...
Beside, I feel kinda lonely & stupid today, I'm in the edge of a nervous breakdown or something.
My friends just left me, & I'm getting tired of trying to be what everyone want me to be,
I'm sick of pretend I am something I'm really not!!! }& I'm fucking tired of listening to everybody telling me : "YOU HAVE TO CHANGE!" Why do I have to change? I do I have to be like everybody is out there? Is fucking stupid, but I think that makes me even more stupid, 'cause I listent to them, & I just ca't stop thinking bout it... I feel like shit, and take pills and shit :/
I need a fix!

Where have all the bastards gone?

I'm sad... I have to admit it... My "best friend" has just left me all alone... again.
He always does it to me... I mean he has done it about a thousand times before, but now I really miss him, I need to tell him really important things that are going on in my life, and I love him so I want to make him part of it, but he is not leaving me… what can I do? I want him back… but I don’t know what to do… I’m not even sure why is he so upset with me…

Fuck.

I know I may leave him alone, wait until this emotional breakdown ends, but I can’t. I’m the kind of person who needs other people. I can’t live my life without him right now… (I know, it’s lame to say it, but it’s true)
But I think I can’t do anything more, I’ll try to talk to him for the last time.. if he doesn’t pay attention to me, I’ll have to assume that he doesn’t want me in his life anymore. GET USED TO IT, FUCKER! :/

No introduction!

Fuck... I think life is a bitch... & I just can't help complain about everything... so, I think this shit is gonna be like my conscience or something like that... I mean, I know nobody is gonna find this, & I know nobody will even care so... I'll write every little thing I have in my head from now on...

Why in english? 'cause that's the way I think when I'm really pissed off... I'm not sure why if I speak spanish ... I think nevermind anyways.... I mean... fuck it with that, I have better things to complain about like... I dunno, so many things, but I won't write those things right now 'cause it's kinda late, & I have to finish some homework & shit... fucking school, I just want to drop out that shit right now... I don't even know why I'm still there... future? life? money? Maybe.. but I don't think that really matter, I mean... I think it's more like... for don't let my family down more then if I'd do it for my self [I'm sure I wrote that wrong, who cares a fuck? ]

& I think that is for today... I'm gonna finish the biology homework, & then I'll go to bed. Fucking tired! :/